he wanted to buy me a valentine present and post it. I asked him not to. Its too much trouble for him.

Also, he asked me not to take off my glasses when i take a picture for him. He said he loves me the way i am and that my glasses wont make me ugly ( which i really think do).

I think this kind of love is rare, i am so lucky.

do not forget that i will love you forever...

He tells me every day :)

he loves me. Im sure of it. They way he worries, the way he cares, the way i can tell him anything and he will still love me... they all prove how much he cares.

But im having bad thoughts again. It started suddenly. What if someone got close to him and made him fall in love? I told him, he assured me this wont happen.

But what if it does? I cant picture myself with anyone else. I hope im wrong. I hate these thoughts. He is my one and only...

well, yesterday was valentines day. He was so worried and sad that he couldnt buy me anything and i assured him that I absolutely don’t care about gifts.

But i was expecting an instagram story at least, you know! This is our first valentine...

But nothing. Im really disappointed. All he did was post a story about a gym couples valentine and tag my name in it, but like so small that no one can see. I dont care if its small, but i thought he would post something more romantic...

I didnt post anything because i wanted to see what he would do first and...i just... :(

Im still madly in love tho...

i dont know what to do. He feels really lonely, he is really sad. There is nothing i can do about it. He wants his family, he wants his home and his friends. And all i can do is talk and it doesnt seem like a big help.

He told me tonight that he is angry at everyone today. I told him do you want to call? And he said no. I dont feel like talking to anyone.

Maybe i have to let him go. Maybe i should tell him to find a girlfriend in his city. Maybe i have to...

I dont know what to do...